Testament? Will? Really? You were young and impulsive, pumping with queer testosterone, too curious to resist taking the risk, longing to be with people you could relate to, hoping this was a place where you could be your true self.
Of course, you were nervous and apprehensive. I know that feeling well. But I would never congratulate myself for overcoming those very natural trepidations.
Willing? Yes. Will power? Doubtful. Entering your first gay bar a testament to your courage and strength of character? I don’t believe it for a second. Just sayin’.