Certainly not. But, there must have been some residual morsel of shame in there somewhere, or you wouldn’t have had that hair triggered response. Scary thought, right? That, regardless of how out we are, we all still carry around some fragment of belief that who we are and what we do is wrong. Fuck, I hate that!
Maybe this is the healing lesson you can somehow pass along to your nephews, a chance to demonstrate what self esteem and authenticity are about. Best of luck with this, my friend. And thanks for sharing this story.